She told me to stop..

I was just looking around. I'm so far away from her and I don't understand why she scolded me. I think she's just making things too difficult for me. First she doesn't reply to my messages, second she ended our friendship. Anyway its alright, because I think I am not suited to be her boyfriend. I don't want her to be in shame because of me. Well I guess I'll just watch her picture with myself. Huhuhu another girl bad for my health. :(

Just 2% of her love

I fell asleep last night and she is the last person I imagined to be with, hoping that I could bring abduct her to my dreams. I kept reminding myself that she is the pillow I hug every night. Unfortunately, it didn't work. I hugged my pillow again but still coldness from inside of me haunted me along with the reality, they shouted at me-"You are nothing compared to the guy he loves"

Again ideas popped in my mind. What if i'll beg 2% of her love to be given to me. Not bad I think, 2% may compose a little time, presence, and maybe time for texting.... Z z Z z Z...

Invisibled

I was running to the courtyard

Never waiting for you to come by

All i've ever wanted was your smile

And there was truth in my lies

Exiled to a weird dimension

Trapped in this world of my own

My picture in the mirror

Was the same as birds of terror

Enigmatic scene, sweet flavor

Coldness inside, bitterness outside

Mellow noise oozing in my ears

As she departed, my eyes flooded with tears

Deafirince?

"I can't find the love I want Someone better slap me Before I start to rust Before I start to decompose "




She is a girl, Jae ann is her name, she is 17 yrs. old, she is my classmate, she is a FIlipina, She is a rich girl, she is beautiful, brilliant, and in terms of social status--Elite.

I, mark clement, 18 yrs. old, filipino, not so rich guy, not so handsome, and I am poor when it comes to material things.


We are both students, and we are currently studying at Ateneo de Davao University.

Is he too lucky? Or I'm just so unlucky

☺"I got dosed by you and Closer than most to you and What am I supposed to do Take it away I never had it anyway Take it away and everything will be okay"☺

She entered the room with a smile while all of us were on panic because we don't have assignment. She sat in her seat and I looked at her direct to the eyes and my coconut shell started to form some hallucination. I was in the middle of my day dreaming when suddenly she shouted that she saw her crush and in fact they were together in the elevator. "WAaaaaaaa" was all i said. After that incident, I made myself as a detective. I gathered info about her crush and I found out that the guy was a short guy, kinda chubby, and I think he is also an elite, because he is well known in the campus. My friends also know this guy, in fact they're telling Jae that her crush was an elf and Dan(My friend who was linked to Jae) is far more handsome than her crush. Because Dan is our friend, we all agreed, even me agreed eventhough deep inside of me, it is so painful. PAinful because someone who is Close to my skin is my enemy. But I didn't mind it because for Dan it was just a joke.

Depression strikes again. I threw my body in my bed and I tried to think of some ideas how to surpass that little guy. Ideas popped into my mind such as, What if i'll act as a mature guy, What if i'll act as an elite too(eventhough i'm not) and what if i'll try to impress her with material things. On the other hand the fact that he is elite, he is rich, he is handsome and I'm just a simple guy, not so rich, and not so handsome. So how can I put into actions tha plan I have??